Friday, October 31, 2008, 9:55 PM
Darling. thank you for caring for me so much. love you. (:
have been having fever since the whole day at work ytd...but survived and worked till 730pm, and went home only to find out i had a fever of 38.5. thanks to dar too anyway. lol. =\ and my throat kinda hurt so ended up at the doc..but medicine worked miraculously and now i'm left at 37 degrees and a milder throat. =D
baby hammies have started to open their eyes! (: yay yay yay. so cuteeeeeeeeeeee.
hopefully they grow and live to their full age even though they lost their mum at 7 days old...will post their pictures soon.
dar get well soon. i already getting well u still sick ah. tsk tsk.
missing volleyball...melly's growing fat =(
Sunday, October 19, 2008, 11:52 AM
dearest melbit 09/01/2007-18/10/2008To my dearest melbit, rest in peace.
mummy, little sis and I love you and miss you lots.melbit has passed away early this morning. i woke up to find my mum crying in front of me..saying she didnt make it through the night. we found melbit having diarrhoea and becoming inactive late last night, wanted to bring her to the vet early this morning but she didnt make it through... i'm such a lousy owner. ='(
i cant believe she's dead. i just keep crying. i walk past her cage and there's no more jumpy melbit anticipating me with those innocent eyes anymore. its just a lame lonely empty cage...i'm so so upset i just cant stop crying.
just sent her body to mount pleasant's to be cremated. she nvr got a chance to finish the new snacks i recently bought for her. ='(
i miss melbit so. melbit rest in peace in animal heaven...
this is the first time i've felt so much sorrow in my entire life, even when grandpa died, i didnt cry this much...i mean, melbit was like my dog, my joy. and now she's gone...and so quickly.
in memory of melbit, i've included a picture of her when she just came to my house. as a little bunny...
on the other hand, dar's and my supposedly "2 female hamsters" had 4 babies ytd morning. i know i should be happy, but i just cant be happy now. not when i'm crying. not when melbit...
i just hope the hamham babies survive. i dont think i can deal with anymore of this.
i dont think i can.
stop crying mel. melbit doesnt like you like this..
Thursday, October 16, 2008, 11:59 PM
it has been 1 month and 1 week since i last blogged...
sometimes i just dont feel like expressing how i feel. and these days, its getting more of that way. I just dont feel like expressing myself to the people i love already.. i guess thats cause i'm just one confused soul.
Up till now, after working a month and a half in BEA, i still havent decided about my future route of studies, and i'm not even confident about other aspects of my life. i'm so screwed up. and its not like i can express it when i'm so confused myself, and there's no one who understands. so thus, no one i can really pour my whole confusion and heart out to.. hahas.
life's been passing so quickly at work. not because i enjoy it, but because at the end of the day, i'm just too tired to do anything else. even going out with dar only lessens my fatigue a little. nvm. mel jy. 1.5 months more. u can come out with smth..gulps.
i miss school days. i so do.
i need a lighthouse to guide my course of route in this darkness.
who knows how i am feeling inside? some bloody confused soul ever since i stepped out of rp.
my family's not doing real well too. yeah, we're happy together. but parents lost quite a huge sum of money to the plunging stock market..and its really alot. i dun even know what i can do as their daughter.
everyone must hate reading my sad blog. its either complains or rantings and sadness. sorry peeps. its so diff from the girl you see on the outside isnt it?
oh well, dear classmates who just got into the last army intake, jiayous. hahas.
come back for the next class gathering with lotsa muscles. =)
the whole fel's bday chalet was fun, though real short and with one exception of the hOrrendOus smell contributed periodically by Sueann's Shaun. lol.
fel stay happy!
you gotta meet me up for dinner one day..cuz my house just opposite PSB.. (:
looking forward to lunches with sii every friday! haha. sii! shopping! when is our after work shopping date! =p
signing off.