Thursday, July 10, 2008, 11:38 PM
happy birthday dar! (:
happy happy birthday.
the chocolate rockcake i baked. the bb wallet. the candle. sparklers. macs.
i hope it was enjoyable even though u're down. hope i took away those troubles for that couple of hours. it was nice to see you smile again.. (:
happy last 15 mins of your birthday.
macs has limited edition coke glass cups for beijing olympics! i want the vball one!
drew a mind map of the possible routes i can take for studies today afternoon. and it made things a little clearer..though still really ambiguous. haha.
, 1:02 AM
happy birthday dar.
..though this perfect bday i wanted you to have is pretty much ruined despite my efforts... hahaaaa. i cant help but feel disappointed actually. that even though i'm born with 2 ears to listen, its useless because its not wanted..
i guess i can only just be there for you if you need me. if you even need me at all.
haha. why do i feel so redundant. like a white elephant waiting to be discarded.
partnie, mo gu, i realize i miss you 2 so much! =(
i'm glad i was there at tp and got to chat and catch up with you guys. such a nostalgic feeling.
partnie, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going...i remember u once said that janis is a fighter! so partnie jy. its the last straw~~ the last leg already.. just survive through it okay? its gonna be alright. i'll try to be there as often k? =)
xiao mo gu, i can see that you're pretty stressed out too...you enjoy the game but its just a different enjoyment as a whole nowadays...miss u so much laa. =( it was great to watch u ping pang the court again. haha. and with your
RED nails! lol. And dont feel helpless with regards to your friend ok. i'm sure she knows u care (thats why you bother) much deep down. i know she does. =) jy with your 3 matches mo gu! mo gu fight fight! sleep early everyday ah if not no energy hor (:
ah ma, you've been down and out recently too..and you hurt your ankle today..i hope it gets better soon. you better see a sinseh or smth ah! ah ma must take care! if not sun nu also sad. =( jyjy ah ma. be a fighter too.
xl and sii, nice catching up with you girls too...
i realized everyone has chosen their own paths to take when i chatted with xl. zj, gill and her are all in globalSIM RMIT/UOL... if only i applied in time. sigh. what shld i do! uni of buffalo business admin? SIM visual comm with business? or wait one year and then work and try to apply again nxt year? =( i'm so lost. so so lost... who can help enlighten me?
and goodluck to junguang, shaun, kc, yenkai who are all reporting to army in these 2 days (can see the dates from your msn nicks). LOL. happy botak-ing! enjoy. haha.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008, 11:42 PM
you broke my heart with lies.
and all i feel like is avoiding you now.
candles, scrapbook, cake, gift. why did i even bother going to that extend for someone who lied to me time and again. i feel so foolish now.
i need self time out. substitution please. someone please substitute me. this game is getting too tiring for me.
, 1:06 AM
and the question boils down to...
PASSION or the MONEY.
I really love medical science, but, the pay really sucks and the job promotion status is like practically...zero? i mean what, from a haematologist to a senior haematologist? lol. I love blood science but can passion really fill my stomach in the future?
I also like Banking, but have no idea what the job entails. just that my parents are/used to be working in the banks and i've seen their interesting job scope..and hey, it pays even better than having a specialized degree in science.
so what should i do?
Go with my passion and end up miserable cause i might not be able to have the lifestyle i want, or go with something that can make me happy and give me the lifestyle i want but at the same time regret not pursuing my interest in medical science?
lols. This is such a confusing issue to me.
Counting down: 2 days.
i hope you'll have the bestest day ever.
AND I SAW XIAO MO GU on tv tdy! I was like wondering during the starting song of the Beach.Ball.Babes when I will see Kaixuann like in the episode laa. and who knew! she was the first person to be featured in the show! lols. The serving one from V Rockets. so cool. =p
anyway, the libero of the G-force team...doesnt know how to act..its abit...erm. And Jade Seah..doesnt look hot in there either.. O_o
But Dawn Yeo's quite hot. haha. oh well.
wonder which other volleyballers are in the show. Gill shld be the substitution for joanne peh honestly...they look alike from the back! =\
the show made me miss vball sooo much. especially when i see them feature RP vball court. BOOHOO. i miss the court! i miss the game! i miss jan jan, mo gu, ah ma! ='( gill, zj, mols, sii!
i even miss francis jiao lian can. haha.
starting to plan the next route of my life...i know whichever route i choose will affect my life, so i have to think carefully..sigh.
shall go sleep le.
my baking failed tdy. gonna do another one tmr...sighhhhhhhhhh!
and well..i ended my phone conversation with you today.
i guess i dont really like this barrier in between us..if you understand what i mean. every barrier is something that hinders us. and well..it makes me feel like i'm such a burden to you in terms of that..if there's this kinda barrier, when can we be open? if only you understand and not judge me. if pride is to come within a r/s, then the r/s isnt deem to last because there wont be honesty, but hostility.
last note & most important note:
MO GU, JAN JAN, AH MA, SHU JIAYOU FOR POL-ITE KK! WIN NYP ON WEDNESDAY! =D RP ACE!!
hope to cheer you girls on =) moral support! haha.
guys team too! hope u guys achieve smth this year with the new team! =)