Saturday, April 28, 2007, 11:37 PM
moody.
i hate this time of every month. really do.
i feel so left out.
its always me.
always.
went on shopping therapy with my lil' sis today.
but seriously, though i finally got new clothes, i feel even worse now.
sneezing and blocked nose the whole day plus pms-ing = horrendously horrible. atrocious.
told bj that i wouldnt be joining their class for pulau ubin... this way, they'll have more fun. dont worry, i wont be missed.
shall arrange to see if e37h small gang wanna go out on tuesday.
library to study. kbox to sing. kpool to play pool. sentosa to play beach volleyball and swim? jona and jg's shopping day? anything will do. as long as its not something wacky tot out by rendall koh. ha ha.
lifesaving? yes. no. i dunno.
one thing for sure, i need my tube of lifesavers.
, 1:10 AM
pissed.
in super pms mood.
wtf.
i realized that benjie doesnt even use that many vulgarities on me.
fine.
fine.
fine.
not gonna be your stressball either.
why do i even ever bother figuring out your nick time and again.
if all i am is a rubbish bin to hurl vulgarities and insults at. i quit.
just throw me in the incinerator. at least i am safe from you.
i dont even know why i am behaving liddat.
i really dont.
pmsing? or something else.
its time to chill my brains out again.
too stressed?
i dont seem to be the only one.
mel, straighten out your dumb thoughts please.
i am an insufferable, intolerable, arrogant, incorrigible, unreasonable spoilt
and fucked up brat.
mood: ='''''(
Thursday, April 26, 2007, 11:32 PM
the stars shine.
its the end of the path for this time.
confided in weelung about how I felt with regards to my ever lousy skills and useless-ness to volleyball. only he knew how sadded i was for he could actually empathise...thanks wl, for trying to console me ytd... =)
i dunno. maybe its time i move on to something i can actually do better at, and not feel useless time and again. and demoralized time and again...yikai's and junguang's offer sounds appealing. i cant believe i am actually considering it. and my dad's also adding on to it, saying that I'm a year 3 student, a final year student and shouldnt be going for trainings anymore. cuz they end fairly late and i always look like a zombie the day after that...i dunno. i really dont know.
fyp phase I wet lab has come to an end...but I seriously dont think my team did well. our results were so meagre...and honestly, whats the conclusion?! I half regretted doing this. sigh. chocolates making looks more fun than worrying that we smell of mussels or kanna pinched by crabs and get the flesh eating disease all day long.(even if the disease is like so rare) lol.
enough of crap for the day. signing off...
gdnite.
its friday.
thank God its friday.
seeing my dear kor kor ltr! whee! =)
Sunday, April 22, 2007, 1:22 AM
yes. they are finally behaving themselves.
hail crabs. just hope they dont go all mischevious again tmr.
i need a life.
whoever created the calendar should have put 4 weekends instead of only 2. I need more time to study and to do things I like. RAH~!
i am so not in an irritable mode. haiz.
wanna learn jap but dont feel like attending jap class every sunday already.
and i tasted the icky taste of raw mussels accidentally today. though I already washed my hands very thoroughly...when i ate kfc with molly, i could almost swear that i tasted the horrifying taste. ewwwww!!!!! i am never gonna be a fisherman or a fish monger. it'll definitely drive me nuts.
after that. went to find jon,rendall,fel and yikai at kbox amk~ got lost trying to find the place. as usual for mel. haha.
sang from 3.45 till 8.50pm. they didnt chase us out sia. so good. but there was this really retarded guy who got on all our nerves. he registers things so slowly and keeps coming into the room to ask about every little thing and irk us more.
anyway, had a really great time with them. All nonsense one! all love chinese emo songs! wheeee. yikai sang his thousand legged worm song. lol. but was surprised that jonathan has a really good voice! gosh. rendall was ok too, just that he occasionally zao sia. fel sings so sweetly and in tune =D yikai loves his ju hua tai by jay. haha.
went to find my family after dinner. but guessed what. I was locked inside bugis shopping centre with no way out, and alone. best sia. their gates lock automatically at 10.30pm. and when i realized the escalators had been blocked by the gates, i tried to walk back to the mrt, budden the route i came from was locked by gates too! and the lifts werent working anymore. And i tried the stairs, but upon climbing 3 flights of stairs to the 1st story, i found out that the door was locked too. great man. i saw another guy who was as shocked as me, and a security guard who was freaking me out by saying i had no way out of the vicinity. thank god we finally found a way out from another building's lift. i have never panicked so much since the year I was in primary 2 and trapped in a lift.
stupid automated system! so much for that. they're gonna lock people in someday.
rah.
finished watching hana yori dango II! i loved the ending man. so shweeet. i find it so much nicer than the taiwanese meteor garden...i cried watching the part where domyouji forgot about her man. =(
randomize thought of the day:
domyouji: "you were meant for me."
off to sleep. so tiredd.haiz.
Saturday, April 21, 2007, 12:54 AM
fyp. again.
so no life laaa.
and the crabs are driving me up the wall.
feeding 730 in the morning. 1200 lunch, 530 dinner, 2100 at night.
by the time we are done testing water parameters and defrosting their smelly mussel food and weighing them and cleaning the tank and chasing the crabs to their original cages, 1+ hour passes by. And then we're either late for class or no time to finish our presentation slides.
thats my life since wednesday. and seriously. its fun to a small extend, but sucks to a much bigger extend.
SAT? dont have any idea when i gonna find the time to do it. its like...i dunno.
i feel so demoralized now. I chiong a whole week in class and all I got were my usual B's. I feel as though my efforts always go to waste and I dont measure up to the rest of the class. its such a lousy feeling.
first i got the feeling for my favourite sport. now i got it for my classes. whats next...
why everytime i blog, it always turns out negatively.
need to think of something positive.
oh yah.
I saw my eye candy today! wheeee.
眯眯眼的dragon... *grins*
he's still as good looking to me as ever laaa.
though molly claims her fac is cooler and says dragon not cute =(
yesh. i need to sleep. my eyelids are starting to weigh tonnes.
110am.
to be in school by 12pm
and a possibility of having to meet molly to buy mussels at around 11.15am, so that means waking up at...930am? great. at least i get 8 hrs of sleep.
i love my kor. he's always always asking me never to lose hope in my studies or in whatever I choose to undertake. thanks for your support kor. thanks m&m's lover too (you know who you are) haha. its just that I havent been in a really "enjoy life" mode lately.
sleeep.sleeeep. my precious.
haha.
randomizing thoughts of the day:
i want a wand.
sunset bay.
blue sea.
shinies.
CRABS. I HATE YOU. RAH.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007, 11:53 PM
1 week since i blogged. and i thought it was longer. haha. but this one week was really hectic.
i moved house since last wednesday. and finished unpacking on sunday.
shall invite you guys next month or something, when my family and I are more or less settled happily into the house. I am still getting use to the size man. I am seriously banging into the wall or door everywhere I go. hahaha.
4 new players came in on monday's training. and well, come on, face it, they are more experienced than me. And I know who are the 2 that are most probably get kicked out of u19. me. and shu i guess. Maybe its for the better. Afterall, its been 1 year since I have been in the main 12 and never gotten to actually play a single point. but i dont deny the fact that I am lousier than the rest. Well, its time to not fight so hard anymore. academics come first. I'm tired.
had fyp meeting today. Went to buy our crabs! it was fun man. so excited that we have finally started our project after all that planning and discussion. But gosh, it was so scary handling the crabs. Molly and Yong Jun were the bravest lot. haha. And we got a gay crab too~! Now the feeding schedule starts. 8am, 12pm, 5pm and 9pm. greatness. there goes our sleep and life. wheeee. Hope it's worth it.
played badminton with molly, madd and daniel after fyp today. really had lotsa fun. molly was like...her stamina is like...endless??? gosh. mel played with her until aching all over liao. hahaa. Madd was happily playing it her pancake style. lols. Daniel was clothed head to toe in yonex. haha.
omg.wee lung's testimonial...ownage.he called me a blur queen and gave examples somemore. gosh. my dirty laundry exposed... -_- haha. =|
oh no oh no. not this feeling again.
its so wrong.
i swore never to let it come back.
i am afraid.
no no no no no.
donteventhinkaboutitgirl.
dont
think.
sleep time.gosh.12.37 ler.rah!!
6 more hours of sleep!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007, 12:05 AM
thanks for the avoidance.
yeah. you.
i guess i cant fully blame you either.
i am partly to blame too.
sorry.
if it makes you feel better that way, then by all means, avoid me...
its my last night in my current house, a house that brings back 18 years of memories. From the time I started remembering things till now, I am quite reluctant to leave this house anyway. It's filled with all my childhood memories. so sad ='( sigh.i'll miss this place loads.
tmr shall be a brand new start in a brand new home. just hope that i'll actually remember to walk home from tiong bahru instead of waiting and taking a bus to my old house after training tmr. girls, please remind me to go to the right house. haha.
my lappy's spoilt, and my parents and I dont have the time to send it in for repairs. sigh. and school's reopening on monday. sigh. rahh, why is everything going wrong for me now.
i refuse to think about fyp, refuse to think about anything. life's hectic.
76% barbie.
go go barbie.
dear w35l, i'll miss you guys lots.
Thursday, April 05, 2007, 5:28 PM
yes.my internet connection has finally been repaired!!!
no more shitified connection.
went to alex's chalet at HomeTeam NS chalet from tuesday till today. Only me, madd, alex, wilson and keith stayed over though...but it was fun! At least i learnt how to play mahjong.
Deprivation of sleep was the worst thing that happened there. Everytime I get deprived of sleep, i end up with slower reaction, stoning and my face turns sheet white laa.
Cant go for training today. Lack of sleep, already put some back awhile ago. But the too cold aircon for the past 3 days had the same effect on my fingers again. The joints in my fingers all swollen again.typing still ok, but holding or grabbing something with my fingers hurt~~ dang. ever since I had that accident in primary 6, my hand had already been liddat. I dunno wth they did to my left hand.
My house is done up already! Its just the waiting to move and packing up part thats driving me nuts. gonna move on 11th April...I cant wait to decorate my room. Like, finally! my very own room. great. =)
Sometimes I dont get it. Why do some people have to fight with others for practically everything? Even small little stuffs (shant mention it), they just have to snatch from you and be first. I mean, yeah, I know Singaporeans are known to be kiasu, but to this extend??? I thought singaporeans were only kiasu in the sense of who gets on the bus first or who gets the hello kitty toys first, not WANTING TO BE FIRST FOR EVERYTHING. thats too much man. -_____- that person totally ruined my mood.
Responsibility is relatively important for everyone, especially if you hold a certain position. I believe leaders need to hold true to their words and promises to gain the respect of their subordinates. Well. nevermind. I am being so random here, or am I?
so sleepy.
dragon!
sad case.
eye candy.
camwhore. ^^V
whats true happiness?
mel's randomizing again. haa haa.