Tuesday, June 27, 2006, 2:28 PM
bored.bored. i am falling asleep. zzz
the new facilitator is ranting on and on.
The thing is, she's from China and I seriously dont understand half of what she is saying at all, and at the rate she's speaking, its no wonder i am on my way to dreamland. dumb. I want ms Soo back, even though she's dull, but at least she speaks better english and she can crack jokes(even if half of it are cold).
help. its not that I wanna be bias or anything, but seriously, I dont think i am gonna reap any benefits or gain any knowledge at all if this continues.
not feeling so good today. damn suey la. kanna halfway during lab. now cramps cramps cramps.GAHHH!!! went to esplanade with madd ytd. So weird. We were sitting in between alot of couples, we look as though we were lesbians then. lols.
Anyway, its been a long time since I felt relaxed. relaxed at I have gotten out of my sadness. 我不再去想过去的事了.反正我一个人回想,一个人开心,一个人难过,也还是一样孤单,寂寞. 我还真是失败者呢. 无论我怎么做,怎么爱,结果也仁然一样,从不改变. 我,思秀所喜欢的赧孩子,从未和我在一起过. 算了. 看开了. 我要长笑, 不能让朋友们为我这个人担心.(:
恶作剧之吻-crazy over it! 江直树 is sooo cute!!! =)
ok.So this is just another drama. But wth, let me just indulge and enjoy these kinda series. (: wanna buy the vcd..but its $49.90!!! Arghhh. damn damn. No money.
GAHHHH!!! my facilitator's bra strap is falling off her sleeves. -_-"
ok.i shan't bad mouth people. i am not bad by nature. =X
woke up this morning feeling so tired. this is the second time i dread going to training. darn it. Whats wrong with me. Why am I feeling liddat to something i use to love so much for the past one year?! Have i lost my senses?! All i can think of now is that I want to learn Tennis. I really want to. Haiz, I dont know what's going on already.
omg. her bra strap is alrdy near her elbows and she still doesnt know..goodness. everyone is already staring at it. =|
Friday, June 16, 2006, 1:46 AM
yayness again. I had a bad wrist. I went training, bare with the pain. service and spiked, then the spiker twisted her foot, and I took over her place, and with that bad wrist, i played bad and it hurts like shyt! its nicely swollen now. 3 cheers for a positively dumb mel.
wrist hurts. wrist hurts. wrist hurts. WRIST HURTS! ahhh.
the best part was i offered to help my injured friend as a support, and it so happened that her weight was on my wrist, and the pain was like..wheee. near unbearable, but i kept quiet. I continued to help her in silence, in pain. haha. 3 cheers for an even more positively dumb mel again!
training was fun today (minus the injuries). It was challenging. We were taken by jonathan! =D he's a nice guy, at least he makes the training more interesting, and is really motivating.
Had to service in sucession, or else all the 8 of us had to do punishments which included sit ups, sprints across the court, push ups (man, was that a killer to my wrist T_T)
my wrist really hurt quite bad during the game, but i kept quiet. jonathan and coach kept dropping balls, making me roll and dive everywhere for the balls as well, making it even worse..but i didnt whine. i couldnt bear to bring myself to. but it hurts. it hurts! i wished i had my tape with me back then. but it ran out thanks to whoever finished it for me during one training.
wrist still hurts, guess its survivable.
Mel. wake up wake up. wake up wake up.
going to sleep. gdnite! sweetdreams. =)
oh goodness, its gonna rain again!! argh! i scared of lightning or shadows! and I sleep by the window! GTG GTG! cya~!
Thursday, June 15, 2006, 7:09 PM
yayness. finally caught one movie i wanted to watch, yesterday. She's the man's not to be missed! Its really hilarious =D watched it with madd, and the whole cinema was packed! we only managed to get the last row corner seats, which SOO happens to be COUPLE SEATS. wowness. like we 2 are not upset enough about some stuffs. fate sure likes to joke.
ok. but at least i gained some morals of the story:
moral 1: hot guys use tampons for nosebleeds.
moral 2: those guys have hot bods.6 pacs!
moral 3: most guys are like Justin, in real life, than like Duke.
moral 4: THAT IS SO FAIRYTALE.amanda got to date 2 captains?!
moral 5: Save it. Which good looking guy is as shy as Duke. nonsense.
So boredd. gonna turn up late for training again.
I lost my motivation to go for trainings..i dunno why.
i just feel so lost. Like i dont know what I want now.
Tuesday's training, i wasnt putting my 100% into it, yes, siii was my da fang partner, but still, i couldnt concentrate. I was in a sluggish mode, and i still feel that way today.
The bruises i get from every training look so foreign on my knees, like i dont even know why I try so hard to get those balls.
My mid teenager life crisis.
I just want a break from all this shyt thats been going on around me.
I wanna get something to forget all the hurt I felt, liking 2 people alot, whom I am fated not to end up with.
I just need a vacation to chill my brains somewhere out at the beach at night, just looking at the stars and feeling the sea breeze, away from everything.
Thanks to my parents, I'll be going to Bintan, just a short getaway with them, toss away all my frustrations and disillusions, and just enjoy a 3 day break, with no noise, no nothing. Just the beach, the stars, the night sky, the sea breeze, and my family and I. peace. Skipping monday's school, wont be back till monday evening. :)
Urgh. Saw this freaking nice adidas jacket ytd at heeren!!! wth la, the jacket cost $119. The hot pink and the green and yellow ones were so chio! but I guess i cant buy it. I am totally broke for some unknown reasons. And a new phone is my main priority. Stupid handphone keypad, its already a goner, making all my fingers swollen. zzz
Gotta go for training already, sigh. Whats wrong with me. where's my passion for volleyball.
completed my sickening 1500 words bird flu essay though! like FINALLY.
mingdao is cute. shao wei too.arghhh.
Saturday, June 10, 2006, 5:16 PM
My sis and I joked and crapped until 3am yesterday.
havent crapped with her much for some while already.
one crapped and we crapped 3 hours into the night.
at least i have a lil' sis who understands me :)
woke up at 9.30am today, cause my family wanted to go kbox.
went to marina's one.
got a very big room! (lucky for us, as the other rooms were all occupied) =)
sang and sang all the songs i love, though my voice not up to mark. haha
chunzheng updated me on world cup results, saying germany won 4-2.
This soccer fever is taking all the guys down again, as they all burn the midnight oil, just to watch their favourite soccer teams play, while we girls have more time to do our own things, peacefully without any naggy guys in the picture! =)
Englands' playing against paraguay at 9pm tonight. guess its peace for me again! just gotta bear with all that noise coming from my bro, mum and dad in the living room. >_<"
Joined service learning club. I wanna do some good deeds and help other less fortunate people, by making their day. (no! its not that i havent done good deeds before!) And I think, by joining SLC and interacting with all the less fortunate, I would learn how to count my blessings and not think of my life as screwed up.
Its just that, i dont really wanna face my old classmates in there. afterall, i had a BAD date with one of their friends, and apparently, the friend told them a different story, making me sound like a dumbass in it, though it was him in the wrong. Whatever, as long as my conscience is clear. screw all the other things. =)
bored.bored.bored.bored. I should start on my pp questions now, thanks to my wonderful dad, i got quite a few people that I can select and interview on, with regards to my course, biotechnology. =) shall go plan my questions as I have really NOTHING better to do at the moment.
Oh yah, I won my mum at pool today!!! woot! =)
Quote of the day: turn to the things that make you smile. =)
Friday, June 09, 2006, 4:42 PM
, 11:43 AM
my new blog layout.
my new blog add.
everything new, to start afresh.
no more sadness.
no more tears.
at least thats what i thought i could do.
someone added me on msn from friendster 2 days back.
ok, so we share some same interests.
loves the sea and night sky
loves the serenade and peace and night sea breeze
loves sports
and i realised, it's not only me who's had a fair share of screwed up relationships.
he's had his bad share too.
and he used the same approach to get over it.
to hate that person.
but hating someone is really...tiring.
its sad that how tv dramas
爱情魔法师 and
王子变青蛙 actually depicts loves so sweetly, with 2 couples that have that couple face and that are so sweet to each other, the way they give their all to protect each other, the way they care for each other..does it even exist?!ok, maybe just not in my life.
haha, so ok, maybe i am pretty illusioned about that fact.
but one thing i know is that, I'll never fall for someone so easily again.i mean. i have had enough of liking people who never return the liking.and enough of the people i dont like, liking me.
am i too picky?
do i only go for looks?still remember all i wanted was someone sweet, but i cant deny the fact that i dont go for looks either. i like those cool looking, sporty and sweet sort, but for those my age, they have all been snapped up.ok.whatever it is. i just leave everything to fate.fate.fate.fate~
:) this is my new blog layout~! haha. i really like these kinda shoes and pink anyway. and the song on this blog, well, its from
爱情魔法师.迷宫. this song ok, i love it cause' the chorus depicts how i feel sometimes.
and my whole layout is pink!! ok, if there were white and green layouts i'd most probably use them too. but black.black layouts are always nice. :)
volleyball is stressful too.i mean, i started out only last year, and yet my juniors this year have all had at least 4 years experience previously, so i am quite a far cry for them...trying hard nevertheless.to make it to the main 12 would be a miracle already.mel.buck up. the bruises. the tears. are all worth it.mel. go go jia you~! :)
ok.so bored.guess i am gonna maple for awhile. tag me~! :)